Ready to End
This week has been an overwhelming amount of stress that is for the most part unnecessary. I am so not ready for this surgery again and I am scared to death that I won’t be able to exercise at the same capacity again. I really am missing my friends that are away…I feel like two of my best friends were gone all at once and it’s been a struggle. Being in contact with them isn’t the same as being in their presence. Each one has their unique way of impacting my life. Ugh I miss them :( Thankfully, one of my closest friends remained here. He and I have grown tremendously in our relationship which has been awesome but he isn’t very sappy…so there’s a certain level of emotion we can’t quite reach. I also feel like I’m slowly losing relationships with people. Whether that is through lack of communication, miscommunication or just us drawing apart, it still makes me sad to know someone I love isn’t going to be there anymore. Unfortunately, some of those are by choice while others are just taking their natural course. With Easter approaching I am anxious to get home and celebrate this holiday. Unfortunately it will be while I am handicapped and it is my favorite holiday :( Hopefully something this week will snap me out of this funk and back into the light…
